Last night I had a dream of a baby doll driving an old car. She climbed out of her car seat and guided the car down into the woods. Pine needles scraped along the windows and roof. Baby just waved as she rolled by.
"land....because it is the only thing that lasts."
It is a sorrow-filled day for me. I find out that my grandmother's property has been sold. I am not given time to think about what could have happened if I had known there was an intent to sell. It was as if a rug was pulled out from under me.
I have very few photos from the land and not many at all that I really like. This photo above hangs on the wall in my living room.
This is the land of my childhood, the place I loved to be. I spent many days roaming the property with my grandfather. Memories abound -- those of pulling turnips in the garden or eating a tomato fresh from the plant. Days spent fishing along the creek or right on the point. There are many wild laurel bushes along that point. It will be beautiful soon. It is always beautiful.
Move; faster and don’t look back.
Did you hear something? Just when you know something is about to grab your
ankle – you make it to the top of the stairs and into the light. Quick, close
the door and lock it. Never look back – you don’t want to see if it really is
there. If you see it – you will never go into the basement again. It had to be
close behind you – you could feel that something was right there.
What does it look like? Will it grab
you? Where did it come from? As a child these were my thoughts
when I would walk/run up the steps from the basement.
The creepier basement was at my
grandmother’s. It was open, not finished, and full of things, shadows. There
were wardrobes, light bulbs hanging from the rafters above, chairs, chests of
drawers, and the old freezers.
At night, when it was dark – not much
ambient light in the woods at my grandmother’s – and you wanted ice cream; you
had to go into the basement. Turning on lights as you made your way across the
basement from the bottom of the steps to the other side to the freezers.
Not all of the memories of that
basement were scary. I remember times I sat down there with my granddaddy as he
worked on fishing lures or something near the fireplace. I played in the
wardrobes trying on old dresses and fur coats. At the other end of the basement
were cupboards filled with jellies, preserves, and vegetables my grandmother
had canned the previous summer. There were deer hides from years before; fur so
soft and easily shedding into your hand if you petted one. Near the windows and the French doors were
plants in the cold months that would take the places outdoors in the warm
months; asparagus ferns and a gardenia that had belonged to prior generations.
Sometimes there was a batch of dandelion wine curing on the dryer.
Like most basements – it was most
scary in the dark; but became an adventure in the day time. I took these photos
in the light of day – but they made me think back to steps in the dark.